= La Navidad y El Año Nuevo
*MASSIVE SIGH* I'm now sat in my college room, on my bed with a blanket on, only 14:15 and already it's getting slightly too dark and gloomy to see properly in here! Pre-term in Cambridge is a strange time; there is no routine yet and although you know you've got tonnes of work to be doing, there seems to be odd pockets of nothing-ness which you know you're not going to get for the next, hectic, 8 weeks of term! And I find myself, in those moments, panicking - "why am I not doing anything? what should I be doing? what work can I get on with now?" - and yet still remain in that pocket of nothing-ness. The holiday went so fast; Christmas and New Year rushed by, a flurry of excitement and a whirlwind of things to do! I had a great break; did far too little work, but had a wonderful time. Being with family, with friends, just enjoying being together and praising God for it. This morning in church, we moved on to Jesus' baptism! As if time didn't fly past quick enough already, but in the space of 2 and 1/2 weeks we've made it from Jesus being born to him, as an adult and almost ready to begin his ministry, being baptised! And the preacher told us that when she was a young teenager, she loved church and thought all the people there were great and she wanted to be like them. But she couldn't work out how to be "good enough" to be a Christian. She'd missed the importance of grace. And in those moments of nothing-ness, I panic because I feel like I'm failing. Failing at doing my work for my degree. Failing at using my time effectively. Failing at knowing what I'm working for and what I want to do in the future. Failing at recognising what God wants me to do. Failing at being a good Christian. And it's stupid. Because God doesn't set us up in a succeed or fail situation! He takes us as we are. He loves us as we are. He uses us as we are.
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Enola
24/10/2015 18:42:27
Oh I have missed you <3 so wise beyond your years, beautiful young woman of God. What are you studying? Xx
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Enola
24/10/2015 18:42:55
Aaand in scrolling down I just answered my own question *face palm*
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Rebekah Blyth (Moderator)
24/10/2015 18:50:31
Hahaha! Thank you Enola - I miss you too!
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AuthorI'm a recent Cambridge Theology graduate now studying for a Masters in Biblical Studies and blogging about all sorts of things! I'm interested in faith, Church, theology, social action, the great outdoors and being creative, and all of those things - along with many more - come through in my posts!
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